Tonight I have started then erased new posts about six times now. I always have questions and thoughts about life and reality, and nonsense. And I tried to get them into words tonight and just couldn't get it together. What's wrong with me? Nothing is the answer. It's tough to create, it's tough to actualize a theory, a thought or an idea. Usually I start with an idea and just start writing, and the result is usually nothing like I've foreseen it to be. And I'm ok with that. I'm more than ok with that, I dig it. I mean, how cool is it to just splash raw thoughts or emotion onto a page? I'm not channeling or speaking in tongues here. I'm just writing what comes out. It's really the simplest thing I do. But tonight I can't get that going. And I don't want to disappoint you, faithful reader. They say you should "write what you know", which I always do. So here is this post, which is going nowhere fast, but for some reason, on the seventh try tonight, I can't let it go.
I have plenty to say but can't get the words in the right order on this page. I've been thinking more about human connection, human interaction, human feelings. I'm wondering if it's really possible for things like ants, spiders or even raccoons to NOT have feelings. Seriously, how can they not? And this is my main thought lately. Maybe I just haven't figured it out yet and my mind is putting on the brakes every time I try to push it out. My mind is stopping me from putting out a theory that I just haven't crystallized yet. Thank you to my mind. The mind is a terrible thing (to waste). But I digress. I can't put out decent thoughts tonight, and even in this dialogue, my interest is waning fast. Please dear reader, check me out in a day or so. Hopefully I will have shaken this fog out of my head, or at least, will have thought of something else, something better to say. And since I don't have any good words to cheer you up or inspire you, I will leave you with a song. And because It's me, I'll leave you tonight with a song that I'm sure means something to me. I just can't remember why. Live Big.
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