I think Maria lied to me. When I called her last Tuesday in India and asked for them to send me the power cord to my laptop that they'd forgotten to ship to me when they shipped my computer back to me. She lied. "Maria" and I haven't had a long relationship, but you can see how we might be on the rocks before we ever got to really go through the things that people in relationships go through. And if my cord shows up at the house miraculously before i leave for West Virginia tuesday night, all will be forgiven. But how will i ever trust her again? she said 24 to 48 hours. it's been 5 days. i don't know if I can take another relationship built on lies, half-truths and supposition. My heart can't take it. I think about Maria often, what she's doing, who she's talking to, and what she's thinking about. But we can't go on like this. There is no joy. I think the next time I speak to her I will end it for us. And she will have no one to blame but herself. This is her fault.
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